I reread my post about going with the energy flow. In its conclusion I stated that I\u2019ll be focusing on my energy levels and seeing what feels like what and figuring out a system that might work for me. As soon as I hit \u201cpost\u201d the idea of tracking that sort of thing completely flew out of my head and I continued on with my life as if the thought had never entered my mind. Part of it is the ADHD certainly but part of it I think is that my feelings of burn out also extend to this notion of self-improvement. I\u2019m tired of being a constant work in progress and constantly striving.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The reason I failed to track my energy levels was because I lost interest in Designing Your Life, which was essentially the impetus for that legwork. I have since also returned the book to the library so I can\u2019t pick it back up as easily as I might wish to. I think I also failed at this because I didn\u2019t have a plan. I love a good plan. I didn\u2019t write it down and then intentionally set up the steps necessary to get this thing done. It was just one of my millions of little life tangents I\u2019m constantly bouncing back and forth. I\u2019m currently on my biophilic design kick, didn\u2019t you know? So my own self-improvement has taken a backseat to what essentially boils down to my home redecorating efforts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And now that we are moving major pieces of furniture around and a bunch of stuff is temporarily on the floor, I\u2019m crazy stressed out and would love to just get rid of everything. So I\u2019m back to my winter season. With Daylight Savings Time ending and being a forever annoyance the lack of daylight and the cooler weather means I\u2019m less active. The slowing down is making me want to slow down everything, including creative pursuits, and any and all ambitions. The overflow of stuff is making me wonder why do I even bother collaging or whatever? It takes up so much space and (at least today when I did it after the kids went to bed) it doesn\u2019t even bring me all that much joy anymore. But now I\u2019m stuck with all this stuff<\/em> to facilitate it. I should go back to my browns: painting. But that requires a lot of overhead before strating the part I really enjoy doing and sometimes I just don\u2019t feel like it after a long day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n So what do I do? Plan harder or step back even more and do less? After all, there\u2019s literally no reason I do any of the things that I do outside of work and spending time with my family. None. I don\u2019t make money doing it, I have zero recognition for it. Some of these things are hobbies and make me happy, sure, but I persist even through the parts that don\u2019t make me happy. Why and I bothering?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I reread my post about going with the energy flow. In its conclusion I stated that I\u2019ll be focusing on my energy levels and seeing what feels like what and figuring out a system that might work for me. As soon as I hit \u201cpost\u201d the idea of tracking that sort of thing completely flew […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[17,7],"tags":[90,89,91],"class_list":["post-409","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-burnout","category-feelings","tag-biophilic-design","tag-planning","tag-winter"],"yoast_head":"\n