I\u2019ve been enjoying working on my sock scrap rug. The sewing and braiding is a moving meditation where I can let my thoughts wander in whatever direction they so choose. The tactile experience is also quite nice. The rug feels sturdy in my hands. I love that I\u2019m making something instead of throwing all those socks away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In my joy at upcycling all those socks I started looking to Pinterest for other ideas for textile upcycling. And I\u2019m ashamed to say that that\u2019s where I soured on my wild dreams of achieving high art status with upcycled fabrics. Everyone on Pinterest has already thought of my ideas and executed it with way more precision than I am currently capable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s the fault of my constant mental shooting for the stars. I can\u2019t just make this one project, I must make it my THING and become world famous at this THING. It\u2019s not enough to make one I must make a bunch and sell them to people!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On the one hand, I like dreaming big. On the other, I\u2019m tired of this cycle of mental gymnastics every time something catches my interest. I want to just let myself be. I want to stop feeling like I have to become a professional [insert noun here] (ie: make money doing this thing) in order to enjoy an interest in something. And I don\u2019t want to lose my enthusiasm for something just because someone else has already thought of it first.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My art may be a tiny drop in a vast ocean, but that vast ocean is made up of tiny drops. I may as well continue to make my art and stop worrying about what other people are doing. And let myself just enjoy things without needing to gain world-wide acclaim doing them.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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